One in five people, never, or have rarely, felt loved. Despite how many people surround you, if they are unloving people that don’t respect you for who you are, you could wind up feeling more alone than if they weren’t in your life at all.
Robin Williams’ death today has filled me with both sadness and knowledge. I’ve gained knowledge in that people that have it all are not always happy. Depression is a serious mental issue that needs to be addressed more than it is currently. And I’ve gained sadness, in that someone who appeared to be one of the happiest human beings on the planet, wasn’t.
Depression needs addressing. Depression is difficult.
Just imagine, you get home to your loving husband or wife and they hug you, kiss you, and tell you that you are their world. But this doesn’t make you happy when it should. You dwell on the bad things in life, and let them get in the way without addressing the good things you have. And although you may have it all, mentally the sadness, anxieties and stresses are so powerful they counteract your happiness.
I’ve had my fair share of battles with depression in many forms. Both my mum and my best friend have had to take anti-depressants for their mood swings. I’ve had texts from my best friend at 3am trying to kill herself on a long walk and saying her goodbyes. Depression affects everyone. Not just you, it affects your loved ones too. But that is not and never has been your fault. This is what I can’t quite come to terms with yet during my states of anxiety recently and in my opinion, is one of the many battles with depression that is most common. It is not your fault.
When faced with anxiety, stress or depression, people around you may or may not actually be able to understand how you’re feeling. It’s difficult to deal with depression, but its almost as difficult for your loved ones and the people around you who don’t know how to act/behave around you. They are worried with every line they say in case it triggers you off or doesn’t improve your mood when they feel obliged to do so. They love you. They wish you were not feeling this way too. They just don’t know what to do.
Depression is not just a more impressive title than “im feeling sad today.” Depression is a serious mental issue, which is hard to combat. It involves being unable to be happy, and not knowing how to make that better. No amount of hugs or smiles or hobbies can distract you from yourself.
“No doctor or pill that can take the pain away, the pain’s inside and nobody frees you from your body.”
I can only wish after this gloom of a day, that the people at the top wake up and realise depression needs addressing. Not one day, not soon, now.
Love all those around you as best as you can, that’s all you can do.